its a love hate relationship, now hear me out..
i love going on little adventures, and consistently getting my mind blown by Large sounds or Little details, or anything in between really.
tuning out the world's stupidity (and my own) to listen to albums and albums of 13 minute songs.
at work tho, its a whole nother beast, cuz im there for 8 hours and have 1 earbud in, with mono sound (rly takes away from the experience. but hell, im working), and my mind craves smth new like every day. ive resorted to asking my coworkers for music but its all rap, country, and punk. not hating on em or anything, i love most selections, but tbh when u listen to like 3 genres when ur working full time, uhhhh u start to lose it lol. im at a point rn where im constantly craving new music but its like a bad desperate kind of craving yknow?? and when im finally home im too exhausted to listen to stuff anyways
when i share music, its either to my gf, ex, or just another coworker, since thats pretty much my entire social circle now. i usually dont get responses when i share with ex or coworkers, but here are some comments. "wow its youtube music" "ok" "nice boobs" "drifting music" "is this undertale" "korean beatles? i thought you were chinese" "ok but listen to this AI cover of mr krabs singing billie jean"
and as for creating music, i currently hold myself to a very high standard: "you know that fifths are hollow, and if you use this chord you will be unoriginal, you will likely be labelled as touhou or miohcore--" nahhh shut up i just wanna make a song and my own mind aint letting me nahhhhhh. when i Do Create, i feel great abt it tho. satisfied. "you clda done this and that," yes, but satisfied and feel comfortable showing it off until it gets tagged as "calm, relaxing, piano, touhou" again
but holy shit i love music omg it makes me nut. pls share Very Long Albums that can be listened to with One Earbud