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hey, we’ve all been there, I think. Good on you for creating something and sharing despite the thought process behind it and feeling like being in a slump… sometimes the creative stuff ebbs and flows. Keep with it!
Level 21 Chipist
furnace
18th/24
springiness
218th Σ3.721
equinox
218th Σ3.866
germinations
220th Σ3.859
flower power
230th Σ3.493
spring in pants
217th Σ3.792
Burnt and Fried, I Wanna Cry
long personal rant warning:
so... at the start of spring tracks, I had an interesting idea: "What if I make a small selection of tracks, but use the chips / whatever instrumentation in a very unique way?"
that.... didn't go to plan....
alright then, "how about make a cover art image? I've wanted to try blockbench for awhile, can't be too difficult"
that.. also didn't go to plan...
umm...
I'll...
make...
"actually I'll go redo my cover art entry, it looks pretty bad, could definitely improve it."
that... went.. ok? (but the render of the entry and the entry art itself were now 2 different things... *sigh*)
alright... I'll...
just...
ok , "I'll take a break, I saw this interesting game jam, shouldn't be too bad"
as of me writing this nonsense, it's still in the voting phase, and I'm... 55% happy with it (everything is fine besides the fact that the game is pretty repetitive and I didn't use the theme that well...)
"ah right, botb. I'll make a simple but good entry, can't be diffic-"
it was pain
everytime I tried to make something that was in my head, thanks to me lacking perfect and relative pitch, it never sounded like how I wanted
additionally, I was still trying to making something that was at least... impressive in some way, heck, just good, but no matter how hard I tried, they never would be what I wanted
I think I just suddenly had this issue after traNce 163, with my abysmal placement, and just realised that I should really start making good entries
I more or less just wanted something at the end of this to be something that could actually be good compared to many of the entries in this battle.
it's not like I can't write originals, I just can't seem to write ones I'm happy with compared to others people on botb anymore. like I can do a xhb happily (and still place bad but we'll ignore that) but now I just can't do a major at ALL. like even when I tried to make a simple song because I knew a complex one was bad for me in this state, I STILL couldn't put what was in my head into furnace
eventually I got something... ok...
...and so this basic and boring song was born
if you read all that
...Thank you.
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Agree with kilowatt...the creative process can be a brutal grind indeed. I'm glad that you keep working at it, and I always enjoy seeing more work from you!
I like how this piece takes its time and slowly builds up. I dig the lead melodies. I think the second half could have a bit more adventurous development, but regardless, it's a solid bop!
I like how this piece takes its time and slowly builds up. I dig the lead melodies. I think the second half could have a bit more adventurous development, but regardless, it's a solid bop!
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once the full instrumentation kicks in i thought the harmony of the piece was cool!
190911
"it never sounded like how I wanted"
I often see myself in places such as the ones you described. I try to stay as optimistic as possible. Like no matter how much I feel "that's not it" I tell myself that one day this is gonna be it, and that what I am doing now is part of a greater process. It doesn't make me like everything I do, but it certainly helps me looking back at what I made and be proud of it regardless.
Recently, I have been takling the possibility that maybe I don't actually know EXACTLY what I want most of the time, and that I'm throwing away stuff because it doesn't fit a mold that doesn't exist.
So I have been trying to better define that mold before getting into larger compositions. Writing down themes, stories, storing inspirations and clearly defining the limitations. Then creating a small collection of phrases, progressions, and other more specific stuff that could work for that project. Whatever I could think of really. So far so good, but let's see if gives results in the long run!
I often see myself in places such as the ones you described. I try to stay as optimistic as possible. Like no matter how much I feel "that's not it" I tell myself that one day this is gonna be it, and that what I am doing now is part of a greater process. It doesn't make me like everything I do, but it certainly helps me looking back at what I made and be proud of it regardless.
Recently, I have been takling the possibility that maybe I don't actually know EXACTLY what I want most of the time, and that I'm throwing away stuff because it doesn't fit a mold that doesn't exist.
So I have been trying to better define that mold before getting into larger compositions. Writing down themes, stories, storing inspirations and clearly defining the limitations. Then creating a small collection of phrases, progressions, and other more specific stuff that could work for that project. Whatever I could think of really. So far so good, but let's see if gives results in the long run!
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